even too tired for DB

in the last 72 hours, my boyfriend has been to his primary care doctor once, urgent care twice, and the ER once. he's been injected with toradol, prescribed morphine (!) and is now on oxycontin.

he's got disc problems. he has had disc problems since june, but things are getting worse. his toes are going numb and he has shooting pain down his leg.

he's got a referral to a neurosurgeon to talk about epidural and/or surgery. he's got another (his 3rd) MRI scheduled. he is not sleeping; therefore, neither am i. and these physical hardships are nothing compared to the emotional trauma this is taking on him. things are difficult right now.

i'm there for him as much as i can be. up in the middle of the night, trying to soothe his pain. trying to keep him from bashing his head against the wall in frustration (which he is prone to do in the middle of the night when sleep simply won't come).

i am really tired.

david byrne's new album is out; i've had time to listen to it only once.